these days, ive been feeling really neglected cuz of my so called friends.. is it right, that im the only one trying hard, to reach out to them.. everything is stressing me out, and i cant really handle stress well, so i decided to just ignore them for the time being..
i have this one friend, who is really dependent on me.. like i help her every time she needs help, always came running to me when she feels depressed… but these days, i feel like she’s just using me.. like she’ll only contact me when something happened to her and her ex.. her ex that she dumped 3 years ago, because she cant trust him anymore.. then right now, the guy is giving her efforts to win her heart again.. and she’s giving him a chance ! i know everything about that friend, in those 3 years, she’ll always talk about him.. i also know why, she cant moved on, because the guy keep popping in and out to her.. like he’s pulling her down, not letting her move on while he flirts with other girls.. and that what irritates me.. that guy hurt her for these past 3 years and still, has the guts to comeback and my friend is welcoming him again.. i dont get her, really.. but the guy says, he’s serious this time..and i just cant trust him.
there is this feeling that i want to protect her from something but i cant.. idk why im being overprotective of her, when it comes to this guy.. -_-
im a bit angry at her right now, cuz she’s been neglecting me cuz of that guy.. she already texted me, sorry, but i got a feeling that she’s just saying sorry because she has something to say about the guy.. so i didnt reply back..
you know, it feels like, when we dont talk about that guy, we dont have anything to talk about.. im putting some distance between us cuz i dont want her to continue that.. i wish with the wall im trying to build, she’ll realize some things.. but who knows, she might not care at all… i really want to support her with everything cuz i still think of her as a friend but im getting tired too.. tired of me, only caring and trying to save the friendship we have.. i also have my limits..
hmmm.. what do you think ? what is the right thing to do… ?
